ThE MaP oF TaNaUaN, LeyTe PhiliPpiNeS

A DAY OF LOVE

This is for you…

It was a freezing early Monday morning, when I unexpectedly beeped to my cellular phone waiting for the text of my bessy. She’s a “she” regardless of her age, she was my best friend. I met her in class room; I was just seated, looking at the transom when all of a sudden this lady sits next to my chair. I was dazed at first, stunning at her goddess beauty. I can’t accept as true to myself that I’m sitting alongside such a divine lad.

I was astounded by her beauty that I even stared at her for over a minute or more. What makes it more beautiful when she smiles at me, it makes my heart go crazy, making my heart harder to beat. I presumed to myself that the coming days will be greater ‘coz each day that would go by is as striking like her. Every dawn as I wake up, the nerve of going to school barely frenzied my body. I rush to our campus to be with her, with virgin beauty, her long-lasting splendor.

The days turned into months but I did not stop lurking at her essential beauty. I soon became emotionally involved to her. She made me laugh at some time, as well as I, myself made her laugh.

We enjoyed always the moment together, we share private topics, talk about love stories, and even share the same food (Cream O). It was fun being with her, it was really fun. She’s a different type of girl, she’s frank, honest, and true and sweet, oh good grace she’s really sweet.

There was an instance that we went to their house to have lunch. She’s stunningly beautiful as she walks towards me. Acting that I just ignore her beauty, I stay still just looking at her. She knows how to cook, and she knows how to cook my favorite dish. She habitually asks me what boys want to satisfy their hunger. If merely she knew, just staring at her already satisfies my hunger. I lightheartedly answered her.

Except, there’s one occurrence that we have to part ways, our blossoming friendship twisted into madness. I’ve made the biggest blunder in my life; I fell in love to my best friend. At first, I deny it to myself but a dear friend of mine told me that it’s noticeable, it’s really obvious. Even “her” my best friend nodded at me saying that I love her. Of course I love her!!! So much, more than a lover can give ‘coz I’m her best friend.

To save myself from their finger pointing, I just smiled at them; I smiled at her and waved at her a farewell. Through a text message, I confessed it to her. I mean no harm and I did not plan that way, to be her best friend and then a lover. I told her all the reasons why I landed up to that emotion I had for her. She already knew it even before I realized that I loved her. Through actions and sense, she predicted that there will be something that would come up with our company.

The bittersweet part, her suitor, was a solid friend of mine. I slapped my heart to stop longing for her, ending with her in respect to her suitor. From that time on, the beautiful days of our friendship began to diminish. Only through text I can feel her presence; only through glimpse I can view her splendor.

Deciding for the right option was easier said than done to me, I discern what to choose but I’m troubled of what would be the outcome… she’s the best I have and I don’t want to lose her… but I love her.

It would be best to love a best friend, not as a lover but more than a lover…

“There are things that are so near to you but you can’t even have a touch at it.

There are thoughts only sought for someone and not similar to others…

And, there are those people who would be at your side for a moment,

But all of a sudden the moment was gone, evermore.”